hey chums. to all of you that i usually talk to on a semi-regular basis: i’m going through some medical stuff at the moment and i’m just not feeling very good emotionally to be honest. so please…don’t think i’m ignoring you…i’m just doing what i need to cope. all i can tell you is that i’ve been having ongoing tooth pain which remains/// even after fixing all the suspected culprits. i had a dental ct scan the other day as suggested by my endodontist to see if maybe i had a cracked root somewhere. well…that ct scan showed that i have some type of mass in my jaw bone..about 1cm in diameter…around the tip of one of my roots. it is not an abscess. so…i’ve been referred to my doctor who is sending that ct scan to a specialist in oakland and i’m currently waiting to hear what the next step will be…probably an MRI..and most likely, whatever it is will need to be removed. i am a life-long sufferer with an anxiety disorder…so of course, i’m thinking the worst and i’m afraid i have cancer. there are lots of possibilities as far as what it is…and of course..that’s one of them. needless to say…i’m scared shitless…and i’m just not feeling social at the moment. sometimes, when i have to deal with stressful stuff…i have to isolate myself for a bit to recharge. that’s what i’m doing right now. so please know i’m not ignoring you…and keep me in your thoughts, k?
I’m not doing what I should be doing rn.
i need to stop wanting to fuck all my friends like can i please stop fuckzoning everyone really like